I said I'd check back often, and I have, I just couldn't bring myself to continue to say "Don't worry, guys, it'll be soon, still working on it!"
I am still working on it, that part is true.
It just won't be in a position to be finished for a long while now... financial issues abound and I still am barely managing a roof over my head, my medical issues have continued to decline to the point that it took me forty minutes of proof reading (of thoughts and spell correcting) to type this many words to make sense, and coding continues to get harder as my mental facilities worsen from my medical issues.
I've been avoiding any contact with pretty much anyone right now.. I'm a wreck mentally and socially, and I do not wish to ruin any friendships or partnerships I have acquired. I pray that what I have put on hold will remain on hold, and that when the time has come that I can become well again, we can resume and post up this fantastic game.
'Maybe a certain character creator can be released on my birthday' is the thought that runs through my head as I write this, and it brings a smile to my face. Ideas are written down, pages upon pages; they just need to be coded and typed. Things are ready to roll, I want to reiterate that, I just don't have the mental facilities to do so.
And since this is my game and my world, I don't feel right, nor do I want to, give this to anyone else to do for me. Tin Foil MklV was making Alteratio WITH me, which is the only reason they were on the project. They wanted to be apart of hte vision, and they brought so many great ideas and inguniuty to something that I hold dear. And we both got what we wanted out of it, so it was mutually beneficial.
So, I wish this process could go faster so you all can enjoy what Alteratio has to offer sooner, but this physical body just wants to dictate what I can and cannot do.
I apologize with great sincerity about the time it took to update you all, and about the current state of the game... 5 months is a lot to lose hope in a game, and I'm sure I've destroyed everything I had up until now.
It was good while we had it, but I'll always be here whenever you feel like checking in :)
The ability for the adult game community to hold onto faith and to have patience is astounding. I'm sure you've lost some but I bet many, if not most, are going to pick right back up as if you never left. Additionally, I'm betting many are just happy to hear that you are alive and haven't given up hope.
ReplyDeleteYour post mentions that you've tried to keep to yourself so as to preserve friendships and such. I advise you to not isolate yourself. There are so many studies, examples, and stories of how isolation destroys the human spirit slowly. It takes its toll mentally and even physically. If you're afraid of loosing important relationships, keep contact but be open about why your are limiting it. Then, make more relationships. If you loose something you just got, you're no worse then you were before you got it.
I meant it as in the sense of being more active with the community, not my personal life. I am in contact with my friends very often, but in my current state I don't quite know full well all of the things I am saying and all of the meaning I could be getting across to everyone that I don't personally and vividly know, such as yourself.
DeleteI just don't intend to offend, discriminate, misinform, mislead, or otherwise make any of the people who want to come here to enjoy a game NOT come here to do that simple fact, so I'm refraining from delving too much into personal things and the like. Better to say that I am around and still working than to complain about things not pertaining to the game.
That was my intention to get across anyway, but it seems I failed in doing that. My apologies.
Text can be a beautiful medium and it can be a royal pain in the rear. Since so much personal touch gets lost in conversation via text, its easy to misunderstand someone. It's just as likely that I mentally jumped onto a specific understanding and didn't really pay attention to other interpretations. So my apologies as well.
DeleteYour choice to keep your personal difficulties personal is totally valid and I can appreciate your desire to not accidentally create some negative effect. I too tend to be (overly?) cautious in that regard myself.
The most important part is that you find/have ways to keep injecting fun, enjoyment, and happiness into your life. It sounds like you have friends to help with that and you still find the work for this game enjoyable as well. :)
On the player end, it takes but bread crumbs to keep the hope alive in your fans. :)
Hey you're back! Welcome back :D I was keeping in touch with you via email to see how things were but you never got back to me! But given what you said in the post, you're probably having a lot of trouble right now. Don't worry though, if you ever need anything just let me know.
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Thanks! Yea, I had no internet for a while, so my apologies in not replying. It's hard to even remember that I need to check it right now, lol.
DeleteHey again, if I can do anything to help you get your game off the ground just let me know. :)
DeleteHang in there!
ReplyDeleteWill do! <3
DeleteWeclome back im glad your mostly ok and i hope you get better soon still looking forward to this amazing game of yours and i will never give up on it or you :)
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